Still Here

Hey.


I don't post much any more.  I am now in a privacy phase of my life. 






We live in an open society so they say. 




There are secrets.  Time has an effect on secrets.




I am now for the most part shutting the hell up and mostly minding my own
business.  I will not be as successful as I want to be in my life-time but I will taste
some success. 


Loser?  Yes.  Successful loser?  Yes.  Paradoxical nonsense?  Perhaps. 


And yes, I am on my meds :)


Peace.

HHhhhhhmmmmmmmm.

"God is trying to tell you something." - (The Color Purple)

Tata Vega - Maybe God Is Trying To Tell You Something (Speak Lord)

Below Rock-Bottom

Financial Terrorism.



War has been declared.



Anything goes
By any means necessary
Whatever it takes



I HAVE ALREADY PREVAILED!


Bring It!


Boom.
B.O.P.

Ecclesiastes 9:11
Ecclesiastes 10:19

My God damned lunch!!!

Stuff Is Always Going On

I thought Rihanna's album Anti was only available on iTunes and Tidal.  I was in Walmart the other night. . .no title and no words.  Just a picture of the child with the crown pulled over his eyes and a sticker on the front indicating that it is Rihanna's album.  It's not in your standard CD jewel.  It's packaged in hard paper covered in shrink-wrap.  I'm not even totally sure it is in fact a CD!  They have the regular version ($12 bucks) and the deluxe version ($16 bucks).  I may buy one when I get some cash.  Choosing between cigarettes and music that I can get at the library basically for free is a hard decision because if I buy the CD, I can have the music at home.  Decisions, decisions....



Thought my dad hated me because he's always on my case.  Dude dropped $16K on a new used Honda Accord for me!!!  MY FATHER BOUGHT ME A FUCKING CAR!!!  I bought my last car but it was probably not going to pass it's upcoming inspection unless I got a worse-case scenario repair of about $1,500.00 which I didn't have and my father was not going to put money into a 17 year old car. 


Surprise.


Lol, God is good.  My dad is...wow.  Sometimes you just don't know when you think you know.


Peace.

B.O.P.

Michael Jackson - Workin' Day and Night (audio)

The other "real" work.!!

Making Your Own Luck? God Is Good.

I'm in the library parking lot after church today, waiting for it to open.  I decide to make some print outs but I have no money.  I search my car, my pockets, and my laptop bag.  No luck.  No print outs today - so I thought.  I remembered my "secret stash" of a few bucks and am able to get the print outs that I want and have change left over!


Also very hungry right at the moment with no food.  I have some starlight mints and candy near my stash.  POW - hunger pains gone!!


Improvise, adapt, overcome.  God helps you to do that.


Peace.


B.O.P.

Can't Even Pay For It!

Dude!!  I tried to buy Rihanna's single work from ITunes or Tidal.  For Tidal, you need a subscription.  That was out.  Just want the single.  ITunes just didn't work on the library computers.  I asked help from the monitor and she said the only way to buy and download music from the library is to load it from YouTube on to an MP3 player.  I wanted to save the song to a flash-drive then load it onto my computer at home but it was not happening. 


Rihanna, you should manufacture and distribute some physical CDs to us poor people who love your music.  If you do CD's I bet you'd make more money yo!


Peace.
B.O.P.

Rihanna - Work ft. Drake (lyrics)

Rihanna - Work ft. Drake (lyrics)

YES!!

Rihanna - Work (Explicit) ft. Drake

OH MY GOODNESS!!

I don't think I got the video I wanted up, but I came close.  


Good enough?


Thank you Ms. Rihannna and Mr. Drake!!!


Peace.

B.O.P.

Update - The UMG company will not let me upload this video.  Watch on Youtube if you can.

Peace again.
B.O.P.

P.S.  Work by Rihanna  and Drake.  "The Shit Yo"!!!!

Dead Man Blogging Rant

I died a few hours ago.  I sold one of my laptops for forty bucks (sold my soul) and am now one of the walking dead.  I was one of the living dead a long time ago but now I kind of "feel" it.  I feel uneasy, unsettled, ruffled in the whole of my body.  I think I'm experiencing a low level of hell in my living death.  I've never quite been this way.  I took an extra dose of my meds but it's not helping too much. 




As I was walking into the library, I felt the cool breeze across my face.  I saw the crystal-blue sky scattered with a few fluffy clouds partially obscuring the afternoon sun.  I took a deep breath of clean air from the southern New Jersey atmosphere that solidified the life-affirming spring time is coming next week idea.  New life, new love, rebirth. . . . 




I am dead.




My mom's nursing-home roommate died this week.  She was 90 years old and in pretty bad condition.  It's like I died along with her. 






I have two tattoos, one on both of my forearms.  The word death is on both my arms along with two private symbols.  I got the death tattoos some time in 2005 to 2006.  The job that I held for four years prior to the tats was a...life to death, death to life kind of experience that I may have to go back to so I can continue on this deathly living journey. 






At the end of the movie Repentance, one of the characters said that "we are alive but our souls are dead", then, off screen, shot himself. 




My soul is missing.  I have a body.  I have a mind.  Spirit? 




I've been mostly a good person in my opinion.  I even attend Sunday worship at my church on most Sundays.  I'm mostly happy.  Lol, are we all in The Matrix?  There may be some truth to that movie.  I'm not a slave though.  I'm a corpse that walks and breathes. 




I don't mind being dead.  It's just this new, "thorn in my being" that feels soooooo bad. 




I would have some beer.  I would drink until I get smashed and just float on some days but I can't afford beer!!!  That, getting my car up to code, and cigarettes are the main reasons I will be going back to work at age 51.  I would go out and buy a mid-life crisis Corvette but I can't afford to download a picture of  Corvette let alone buy one. 




Damn, damn, damn.




Any ideas people?  What can I do to "patch the hole" in my boat and continue on my life's travels?




Have a good spring.  Have a good Easter.  Enjoy March Madness.




I AM OUT!


Peace?


B.O.P.

Understanding

I think that every day you live life, you gain a little more wisdom.  I don't and probably never will "get" women, but I kind of get them a little bit when it comes to men, dating, and "mate selection".  

Chuck the deuces.  



My world.



My life.



My time.



BRING THE RAIN!

Peace.
B.O.P.

And The Winner Is...

"It's not whether you win or lose, it's how you play the game".
                                                        -Grantland Rice




"Winning isn't everything, it's the only thing".
                                       -Henry (Red) Russel Sanders




"Sometimes when you win, you win.  Sometimes when you win, you lose.  Sometimes when you lose, you win.  Sometimes when you win or lose, you tie and sometimes when you tie, you actually win or lose".            
                                                     

                           -Rosie Perez's character in the movie White Men Can't Jump





wow----you decide.

Peace.
B.O.P.

Movie References

Hey.


I have seen The Matrix movie quite a few times.  The character Morpheus references the work Alice In Wonderland in the beginning of the movie but I never got a feel for that mention until last night.  I saw the 1951 Walt Disney animated move, Alice In Wonderland.  The white rabbit, the rabbit hole...I get it.  The dream world.  Having your own world.  Alice was on a "real" ride throughout the movie, come to find out she was dreaming the whole time.  That dream world was wild and she didn't have too much control over what was happening when she was chasing the white rabbit but she made it through. 




The movie was also alluded to in the Kevin Smith flick Dogma which in my opinion was a real good movie.  Matt Damon's character was talking to a nun about the walrus, carpenter, and oysters relating it to Jesus Christ, Christianity/Roman Catholicism, and somehow making the nun lose her faith in an airport terminal. 




I had the opportunity to see the one where Johnny Depp starred but I wanted to see the original.  The book was written by Lewis Carol a long time ago.  I may, some day, check out the book and read it. 




Worlds, you gotta have at least one or two worlds of your own because dealing in this reality can be tough. 




Just sayin'.  Just some talk.


Peace.


B.O.P.

THE WIZARD OF OZ!!!

I have now seen, in it's entirety, the original movie, The Wizard Of Oz. 


For a G rated movie.  .  .  Wow.


Dorothy (Judy Garland) was a hot, young, babe yo.  If she had done Playboy magazine like Marilyn Monroe did, she would have been  a super-hot celebrity in my opinion. 


I didn't get her name but the wicked witch (of the west?) was Super-hot!!! :) .   They said she was ugly but I thought she was not bad.  I loved the fact that she was power-hungry.  She may have been bad but she was good in a way. 


If this was real, she definitely would not have had a random bucket of water out for her to be vaporized by Dorothy.  Lol, the real ending would have been the Tin man, the Scarecrow, and the Lion would have been killed.  Dorothy would have been killed and the witch would of gotten the ruby shoes!!  The witch would of eventually "taken down" the Mighty Oz and she would of ruled the Land Over The Rainbow unchallenged. 



Hhhhmmmmm.  Creative license. 


Just sayin'.


That movie was made a long time ago.  The brought in a lot of little people to do the munchkin roles.  The special effects were not bad even for today's audience.  For a Kansas family trying to get by, they seemed a little too "energetic" and alive in their personalities to...be struggling.  (Were they struggling to survive?).  Other than the time when she got poisoned by the sleep flowers, Dorothy was always "on".  She really had her energy-drinks throughout the movie. 


Dancing and singing, a good movie for all.  There's no place like home.  

Peace.

B.O.P.